Feeling rejected, 1.00, by my family's secrets

101 days ago (Sun, 06 Jul 2008 19:43:19 +0300)

I cant beleive that !
I just cant beleive that this family has that much secrets ! n everytime I find out one of them I feel like Im out of everything !
I just cant beleive that she died with this seccret ! she never told me anything about that ! Why...? why...? why...? Now Im crying n i cant stop !
OMG ! why ?????????
why they keep it secret till 2day ? N me who thought that... no ! it cant be true !
I had the choc of my life when Chilet told me "m pa konn si sa apfe w mal men..." I acted like it was nothing I just said "manti Chilet" I smiled n took my phone like i was talking 2 somebody, n I runed 2 cry. OMG ! I wanna stop crying but I cant ! I hate them ! I HATE THEM ! Why am i in the DENIS's family ? why ?
2 much things 4 me Lord ! n when he told me" se timoun ou ye ! yo pa t ap janm diw sa ! mande ... poukisa li menm ak ... pat janm byen a Michelle "n I was like " danm its could be true !" (in my mind)
I feel so rejected by the persons that I love.
She died ! n she never told me that before ! my mom never told me anything about this story eighter ! Mommy we need 2 talk ! we r gonna discuss about something important ! but I will not have the courage 2 talk 2 u I ll email u.
Since that day... everytime i think bout it... i cry(its not that bad ! but Im 2 sensible 4 those things !)
I can understand Ruth's reaction now when she found out that .........
2 much secrets in this family God.
I wanna screammmmmmm !!!!!!!
Sometimes I hate my family !!!!!!!

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